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I believe there's always firts time for everything. it was around November when i had my first surgery. the day before, i was still gosipping and laughing with my friends at college but as evening come my stomached got worst. it felt like someone was slicing my stomach with a sharp knife. i can't even walk. and it got worst when i didn't make any move. i wanted to cry, but my tears wont fall. at that time i've had thought that maybe death or suicide is better than this feeling.
that night the doctor said, " the only way is to take a surgery as soon as possible, if not, the appendicitis which already in the emergency state will grow bigger and explode. this would happen soon. the body's liquid will spread over her body and went to her cardiac, tuberculous, and brain. in that case we wont be able to help".it's like a slap to my cheek. it worst than hearing that i'm failed in my final test, worst than got ignored or dumped by someone you like, this was even worst than failed in the entrance exam on My-Favourite-Dream Future college. it was a bad news. No, it was the worst. Father, are you already in heaven? Maybe this time we'll (probably) meet again soon :) i never imagined something like this would ever happen to me. no. never. and no one would, of course.
This was the time i felt most Grateful to God. i'm not the owner of this body and not this soul either. i remember i'm just someone who happened to borrowed these and God is the one who give me this chances to felt what life is like. i was the one whose god believe that will make my parent smiles, take care of them, and doing only good things for them. but, i haven't done anything in my eighteen's. sigh... i know i've done so much wrong, i done nothing and forget about You but please give me one more chances to live my life beautifully, GOD. let me see my mother's smile seeing her succes daughter's.i couldn't sleep that night. i worried too much. until the nurse came to see me. she said i don't need to worry, the surgery will went well and i would be in perfect condition tomorrow. i hope so, nurse. then she give me the sleeping pill.
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first time for everything
I believe there's always firts time for everything. it was around November when i had my first surgery. the day before, i was still gosipping and laughing with my friends at college but as evening come my stomached got worst. it felt like someone was slicing my stomach with a sharp knife. i can't even walk. and it got worst when i didn't make any move. i wanted to cry, but my tears wont fall. at that time i've had thought that maybe death or suicide is better than this feeling.
that night the doctor said, " the only way is to take a surgery as soon as possible, if not, the appendicitis which already in the emergency state will grow bigger and explode. this would happen soon. the body's liquid will spread over her body and went to her cardiac, tuberculous, and brain. in that case we wont be able to help".it's like a slap to my cheek. it worst than hearing that i'm failed in my final test, worst than got ignored or dumped by someone you like, this was even worst than failed in the entrance exam on My-Favourite-Dream Future college. it was a bad news. No, it was the worst. Father, are you already in heaven? Maybe this time we'll (probably) meet again soon :) i never imagined something like this would ever happen to me. no. never. and no one would, of course.
This was the time i felt most Grateful to God. i'm not the owner of this body and not this soul either. i remember i'm just someone who happened to borrowed these and God is the one who give me this chances to felt what life is like. i was the one whose god believe that will make my parent smiles, take care of them, and doing only good things for them. but, i haven't done anything in my eighteen's. sigh... i know i've done so much wrong, i done nothing and forget about You but please give me one more chances to live my life beautifully, GOD. let me see my mother's smile seeing her succes daughter's.i couldn't sleep that night. i worried too much. until the nurse came to see me. she said i don't need to worry, the surgery will went well and i would be in perfect condition tomorrow. i hope so, nurse. then she give me the sleeping pill.
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